To keep living. To have that smile & sip the coffee. The rain still falls & the sound is the same. Afternoon WhatsApp messages that bring on doom. What if we didn’t need to live the social weekends. That had no congruence to your lived life. To the shackles. To the spirals within spirals of anxiety. Parts of me I do not recognize. The life I live or not live, a pain on my soul. Stifled screams. Now just a whimper as the energy to live slowly oozes out.

A thread I wrote on trap many in Pakistan are facing with rising costs & low opportunities to earn. Recession & it’s Impact Inflationary cycles affecting people & the inability to find a way to ⬆️ income is based on 2 factors ↔️unaware of the alternatives ↔️unable to move from age old paths Mindset…

Zindagi Rukti Nahi Har qadam yeh agay jaati hai, aur hum, buss is ke peechay peechay. Hamarey ehsaas kabhi jaltey angaarey, kabhi shokh, kabhi bilkul chup. Is soch ke pehradaar ko keh do. Zindagi ko hum ne Azaad kar diya. Na ab woh hamaray buss mein aur na ab hum us ke peechay peechay. Is khamoshi ke asr, is tehraao ko phail jaanay do. Kahin phir koi manchuli hawa chalay aur phir hum zindagi ke peechay aur woh hamaray agay bhaagnay lagay

Sinking boats To all those anchors I hoped would shore me up, not one reached out from a point of understanding. The familiarity of the tossed up water, the whipping blue & green, the mixed grey is not more intense that what goes inside me. Har kissi ke naseeb mein aaghosh nahi hota Woh aadhi raat aur che gaz zameen hee rehti paas hai

The Tremble Has your heart ever been jolted? In ways you felt it would leave you scrambling for breath. It happened this week & it happened again just now. Words can drown you. Ever talk to a sinking boat? If you know not how to plug the leak, it’s best you let it go. Words from people I thought I mattered to….brutal. It’s best to be no one’s sympathy project. Sink or float, its the ship’s destiny.

Most of us have extremely basic lives. You have experiences & opportunities, sure you create them & not taking anything away from you. But us, we are ordinary, with conflicts & complexities that are mundane but never ending. So like I said our worlds are too different. Your language is…

Dig Deep To find inspiration. Amongst the falling leaves, your soul buried under a multitude of events life has let you pile on. What will it take for you to climb out of this?

Life and loss The light flickered and suddenly there was darkness. Within and without. It is not the absence of light but the darkness inside that was debilitating. Stillness. As empty as a womb after miscarriage of a full term fetus. The promise of life, snatched. Silent screams, eyes looking for answers. Trauma & despair

Despair. The kind that rests as heavy as the carbon monoxide on Venus. Difficult to articulate. Defeating. Desperate. Diminishing. When you hold out your hand, hoping someone will grab it. But those around you, are either already diminished or moved to the next realm, their defeat complete. How do you…